One day this will have a title

For my heart is beating for a future to come/ not knowing what direction im headin/ my feelings for her i love/ always been a great inspiration for my simplistic life/ she knows my battle/ knows my pain for her she stands by and fights/ next to myside/ more then someone to confide/ lost in this battlefield/ almost lost my hope lost my feel because of all the guilt/ just know i will never give up caring/ or being a good guy/ god granted me my queen that will one day be my wife/ tru friends/ tru light/ a peaceful lalabye/ i sit here all alone singin about my son i cry/ i tried/ rewind /to one night/ of one time/ something always i cherished thats on my mind/ i keep marchin keep my balance just find/ me.... dedicated to my future queen...

Still Marchin!!!

There was a day that i was the happiest in my life and that is when i had my son 8 nights in a row... Now my life has changed in an unexpected direction.. i only get to see my son every other weekend now.. im in shambles .. i fell from heavens grace to the fire.. Now i March Straight back up to the top Battling  whatever i must face. My Strength has tripled my heart has healed and now its time to shine my light of happiness of love and of God.

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Marchin forword

Never give up, never stop caring, what would jesus do in this world of hate and out of the ordinary. Times that are tough, times full of pain, always know god has your back to help you through each day. Tomorrow not promised the future you wait to live, try and make each day the best you can to give.. a helping hand, a hug, a place for someone to stay... battle through the bad weather and do good, just change your ways.

Letter to my son Ayden

Dear Ayden my son..  I want to let you know that in my life I have done my all for you and have been the best father/dad that I could be yeah I have had a few things in my life that I have had to change and one of them was my addiction to Xanax pills and another  is  cigarettes.. I'm to the point where I have no other option to get help and by saying that I mean drug rehab.. I am not sure if I will be able to see you just know though my lil soulja that I am trying to prove that I have been and will continue to do my best for you.. This is the only way and I have to get my act together.. its hard honestly because having you 8 nights and your mom having you 6 nights was awesome I put you first and I don't care what anyone thinks or believes That schedule was and is in the best interests for you... it is what you have been doing since you were just a lil baby... for why does this man got to prove anything I'm better then my dads..  thats all a dad can really ask for right!!! I'm not being mean or trying to make anyone feel bad but it's how I'm built... God has shown me my path and now I take the next step up I take my stand now!!! Ayden I will never fail you... I March on and the world and you alone will know the truth that it wasn't as bad as what people have said or made it out to be.. Its my action that will speak out and show the true definition of my parenting and me as an individual.. my true character.. I love you my lil prince..  Monday my big step..  rehab and recovery

Truth of my life

Got all theze thoughts racin /all this stress pacin/ a soulja of the good/ in my life I'm not waistin/ sacrafice 2 gain/ overcome the blame/ this game so difficult but im an ace/ i march on through this battlefield condemning the hate/ got my objective in my mind/ rehab till tomorrow i cant wait/ i step into the booth with fiya relate/  congregate / bust you face/ if u can't meet fate/ or clear the way/ to the lord / I pray/to make it higher up and do good for my son/ hes my number one /feelin lost / im numb/ help me rize out of diz /makin hits/ just luv