Letter to my son Ayden

Dear Ayden my son..  I want to let you know that in my life I have done my all for you and have been the best father/dad that I could be yeah I have had a few things in my life that I have had to change and one of them was my addiction to Xanax pills and another  is  cigarettes.. I'm to the point where I have no other option to get help and by saying that I mean drug rehab.. I am not sure if I will be able to see you just know though my lil soulja that I am trying to prove that I have been and will continue to do my best for you.. This is the only way and I have to get my act together.. its hard honestly because having you 8 nights and your mom having you 6 nights was awesome I put you first and I don't care what anyone thinks or believes That schedule was and is in the best interests for you... it is what you have been doing since you were just a lil baby... for why does this man got to prove anything I'm better then my dads..  thats all a dad can really ask for right!!! I'm not being mean or trying to make anyone feel bad but it's how I'm built... God has shown me my path and now I take the next step up I take my stand now!!! Ayden I will never fail you... I March on and the world and you alone will know the truth that it wasn't as bad as what people have said or made it out to be.. Its my action that will speak out and show the true definition of my parenting and me as an individual.. my true character.. I love you my lil prince..  Monday my big step..  rehab and recovery